My Sit-Down with God
Life was incredibly difficult when I viewed everything through the lens of religion. There was a constant stream of internal dialogue that never seemed to stop. Every decision, every situation, every thought was filtered through questions like: Is this a sin? Will God hold this against me? Am I going against my beliefs? Am I going against God? Do I have one foot in hell? The questions never ended.
Living in that state created a relentless mental burden. Constantly questioning myself, my thoughts, and my choices became emotionally exhausting. Looking back, I now recognize how deeply that way of thinking affected my peace of mind. For me, religion had become mentally abusive and deeply traumatizing.
I felt so tormented by it that one day I finally had what I call a "sit-down" with God. I spoke honestly, from the depths of my thirteen-year-old heart, and said, "I can't do religion anymore. I don't believe this is the way you intend for me to live." I know I was heard and freed because the burden I had carried was suddenly gone.
After that conversation with God, a profound peace settled over me. For the first time, I felt free. I knew that from that moment forward, my life would no longer be guided by fear, but by my Higher Self, God, and Jesus.
Finding the courage to break the chains that religion had wrapped around my mind gave me my life back. It allowed me to discover who I was beneath the beliefs, the fear, and the constant self-questioning. It became the beginning of living from love instead of obligation.
Through it all, one truth continued to echo within me: God loves me unconditionally.
Today, I understand God's love by looking at the love I have for my own children. There is nothing they could do that would make me love them less. My love for them doesn't come with conditions, and I came to realize that God's love for me is the same.
Today, I see that this experience was an important part of my soul's journey. I believe it was something I chose before incarnating on Earth—not as a punishment, but as an opportunity for growth, remembrance, and awakening. Breaking free from what no longer served me became one of the greatest steps in the evolution of my soul.
I know this not because someone told me it was true, but because of what followed: an internal sense of peace, a freedom I had never known, and a love that no longer depended on fear. Those experiences became my confirmation that I had completed that lesson perfectly.
Sue
